Issues

I have a lot of issues. Difficult ones that are overly complicated and difficult to solve. Oftentimes my issues don't even make sense, completely illogical, inexplicable, incomprehensible.

I have issues with avoidance. Issues with anxiety. Issues with authority, independence, and making decisions. I have issues with commitment and with telling people that I need help.

So many issues that somewhere along the line that was All there was. And all I could do was be sucked under a flood of previously dormant problems.

So many that there is no room to live anymore.

All in all, I think I'd like some less... painful issues. No more issues that swallow up my life until I just quit trying.

I think I'm going to replace them decidedly different issues.

Like, for instance, my newly discovered issue with shrimp. I used to quite like shrimp; I thought that it was tasty, especially fried. I liked my mother's coconut shrimp with sweet and sour sauce, all juicy and delicious, and the shrimp from that one Japanese restaurant, hibachi grilled and lemony. Recently though, I don't like shrimp anymore. It's not the preparation of said shrimp (my dad is a damn good cook) it just tastes... funny. And the texture... it's all rubbery and odd. I can't explain it.

I like this issue much better than those up top because, well, even though my random distaste for shrimp doesn't really make sense, it's not a difficult one. Not really solvable but not overly distressing either.

... I do, however, hope to get over it soon. There is so much good food that includes shrimp.